Why do people forget?? You spend time with someone, and when you meet that person after some years, you feel that they have forgotten you. Not actually forgotten you, they do remember that you are the one who used to be next door to them, or the one with whom they used to share the school bench during lunch time......They are so formal with you that you actually wish that you had never met him or her. You feel that all this while they had not remembered you, and life for them moved on with another friend to hold their hand.....Well moving ahead is not what I am actually worried about.
That is what life is all about ultimately; you can not go on living holding to some past....I am worried that they did not even care to remember you in there day to day routine. When you were together, they would not have their afternoon meals without you, and at the time of holidays not a day passed by when you would nt call each other. Did time change them this much??
Really it is not in everybody's hands to maintain the relations they made in their life. Not everybody can do that. As for me, I hav had a pretty shifting life. I had to move to a lot of places. And in the process I hated moving on, because I hated the idea of making new friends and having to get used to live a life in which ur present friends could not be adjusted. I have made some really good friends over the course of my life. And some ones who haven't cared to keep contact with me, though I always had to start again so that I may not lose them. But people don;t really care. MAy be life always moves on. And may be it is hard to value people you met or people who were ur friends once.....
Well, I hate this. I always like to keep contact with people whom I like or I have been friends with. But people don;t seem to care. Because for them, life moves on just as I moved on...It hurts to think that ways..But the sooner we accept the realities of life that better we are at "moving on".... I still continue with the aim of being remembered forever. My college friends...life for them moved on too....I know they must be remembering me..once in a while, but I feel as if I am poking around there lifes when I try to keep contact, because I hardly get a response frm them...May be their life just got too busy. May be they moved on....No I know I matter to them, but I want to ask them, will I matter to them after, say 5 years frm now. Or even 2 years from now?? I am scared to know the answer. For me, it has always been hard to move on. You all are still the same part of me as you were when I was with you. I havent been able to adjust without u guys around me. But someday I will. I fear the day when I willl come back, will you guys be the same with me as you were when we were together? This question makes my heart sick.....n so fearful....
Please never forget me friends... It is hard n lonely without u....n I miss u....a lot....dont; ever forget me...I ll always need u....
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